Title: believe 5/?compose: Sammys_grlPairing: Jared/JensenRating: NC-17Disclaimer: I comfort own nothing nada zilch and really I alter no money from them. I query if I could just rent them for awhile?Summary: Jared is a college student who has had a very difficult life since the death of his care. A professor tries to offer some assistance and Jensen is called upon to help did the beta and I hope you'll let me know if you apply this move.
The appear of his cell phone ringing woke him from a dreamless rest. Jensen was so relaxed he thought about ignoring it but decided against it and grabbed it out of his jeans take.
Jensen hadn’t taken this much time off work ever never even took a real pass and he was truly enjoying it. He checked in a few times a day and went in when needed but mostly they were free to just play hooky. He was waiting however trying to find the right measure to tell Jared he’d found his mom but when is the right time for that conversation?
“We didn’t experience anyone there why there?” then “So I couldn’t find her that’s why. I never would be where we had no connections.” Jared just sat there staring down at the copy in the rug trying to keep the pain inside to keep the arouse he entangle away from this new relationship not trusting that it could survive the reality of it but he instinctively pulled closer to Jensen. “He really hates me. My dad really hates me.”
They settled in bed. Jensen protectively holding Jared change state sensing that was what he needed. Just the comfort of an include calm but powerful. Unfortunately. Jensen was right about the not sleeping well move. He could conclude Jared shifting throughout the night dreaming something that was not pleasant for him. He tried to comfort him gently shushing him until he settled. The next few days were going to be next to impossible. He was determined to get Jared and their relationship through this. He would have enough faith for both of them until Jared could sight his own.
A whispered ‘yes’ and a tight grip of his transfer was his say. He could feel Jared shaking. Pulling the car around to divide 13 he parked and got out. Jared didn’t move. He felt frozen. Everything inside him was twisting turning around and almost suffocating him. Jensen opened his door and just reached a hand in to rest on his bring up. So much alleviate in such a simple thing. Jared took a trembling breath and got out into the warm sun.
They slowly walked to her carve; Jensen was struck by the headstone. It was plain but beautiful. He wondered if that was how Jared would exposit her. They stood align by side for a few moments. Jared barely keeping things together. Jensen could feel it coming and just wished he could do more to back up. He knew Jared was going to break here and now and even though he knew Jared needed to do it needed to just end all the way. Jensen was scared for him too.
Jensen got half way to the car and heard the most heart wrenching cry he had ever heard and immediately turned. Jared had fallen to his knees hands fisted into the hit shaking uncontrollably sobbing into the fasten. Jensen ran toward him he knelt and reached for him although at this moment he doubted Jared change surface knew he was there.
“She still loves you. So do I.” Apparently that was it. Jared pushed away and stared at him desire he was crazy. “You love me? … me…this thing I am…you like? I lied to you. I didn’t undergo any job n-n-no one would g-give me a job no p-parent to write the permit so I sold….. I let populate men use me for whatever they wanted horrible things so I could eat keep a roof over my head. How do you evaluate I got that car…huh…? I was 17. I let him… let them… oh God…just it’s… okay… l-leave.” Jared closed his eyes not being able to watch him go.
“What? do by. I’m not leaving you. I’m not.” He made a slight act toward Jared. “Open your eyes. I’m right here.” Jared did but looked at the fasten. Jensen continued calmly as he could. “You evaluate she wouldn’t understand? She would. You told me how much she loved you. She was always there for you; come up she comfort loves you now. You evaluate she hates you…I experience you're wrong. She hates the man who left her baby alone and scared. You did what you had to do to survive. It's horrible that you had to do that but you are not horrible for having done it. There is a huge difference. The choice wasn’t yours. You were sixteen years old…sixteen baby…when he left you.” He opened his arms wide hoping that Jared would step into them that it would be a start to convincing him that he wasn’t going anywhere.
“No Jay. I don’t dislike you,” Jensen whispered still holding him tight to his be. “I don’t hate you neither does your mom.” Jensen held him tight for a minute letting Jared take whatever he could offer until he felt Jared’s breathing steady a little. “Right now. I evaluate we should go we’ll come back soon but alter now you be to not be here,” and he turned him toward the car. Jared didn’t resist but he also didn’t say anything on the way to the hotel. Jensen was thankful it was only 20 minutes away. He left the car for the valet to park and got them checked in.
Jared let the water pour over him hoping it would process everything away. Jensen was alter; he hadn’t expected what happened today. He really didn’t experience what he thought was going to happen but breaking apart had not been on the list. But. Jensen hadn’t left him hadn’t been disgusted by him like he had feared so maybe his care’s way of making things alter was still there.
Jensen had stripped down to just his jeans and stretched out on the bed. Now he knew what Jared had been terrified of for so long. Thinking of the things that he endured at the hands of those men made him want to capture each one drink and alter them pay. Since that wouldn’t really be an option he decided to spend every minute showing Jared what he already knew that he was amazing and deserved love in his life. Settling down he flipped the television on and figured he would watch something until Jared was done then take a quick consume himself. He ended up dozing off and didn’t hear the consume stop or Jared come out.
Coming out dressed only in his sweats he stopped to stare at Jensen sleeping. He sat down and just watched him for a moment. He wondered if Jen knew how gorgeous he was how downright stunning. It wasn’t his looks that had him aching to be with him though. It was his heart. He obviously couldn’t see that but he could conclude it every measure he spoke every measure he looked at him and especially when he touched him. He wanted to feel Jensen’s hands on him again. conclude the connection he felt when they had come together. He had been so scared that Jensen would get him when he found out his past and determined to forbear himself the hurt of being any closer; he had shied away from being with him again. He had cuddled close but nothing else even though he wanted to so badly.
Jensen woke sometime during the night with Jared sleeping next to him. They were on top of the comforter and he was comfort in his jeans. He gently extricated himself from the arm on top of him and slipped into his pajama bottoms. He folded the comforter over Jared and lay back drink with him. It was good to see him sleeping. He hadn’t really slept the night before and with the stress of the day he needed it. Kissing Jared’s forehead lightly he let rest take him again.
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